All my hopes are now faded. It will never happen.
Tears.
http://www.imdb.com/news/wenn/2005-11-18/#2
Aguilera To Wed on Saturday
Christina Aguilera and her record executive fiance Jordan Bratman are to wed in Napa Valley, northern California, on Saturday after a lavish two-day party. The pop superstar and her beau have booked out the exclusive Staglin Family Winery estate for the nuptials and plan to make the event a lavish celebration. Aguilera will reportedly wear a gown designed for her by French fashion king Christian Lacroix and she will arrive at the ceremony in a white Rolls Royce Phantom. The couple will stage the rehearsal dinner today at the Auberge Du Soleil resort, where they are staying as they prepare for their big day. The lovers are going to great lengths to keep the ceremony as private As possible - it will be staged in a tent on the edge of a forest. The singer, 24, and her 26-year-old husband-to-be announced Their engagement earlier this year after Bratman presented the pop star with a ring crafted by British jeweler Stephen Webster. Guests attending the wedding have been asked to donate cash to the Hurricane Katrina relief effort, rather than buy presents for the couple.
Other sources:
http://dailyblabber.ivillage.com/entertainment/archives/2005/11/christina_aguil.html
http://addict3d.org/index.php?page=viewarticle&type=news&ID=12722
And here I am single again...
Matt
According to most theories it takes the avereage person 2 months for every year they were with someone to officially get over them. This means that the official time for me to get over K will sometime in lat December. (but still close enough for me to hate the Christmas and New Year's holidays.)
It's been just over three weeks since K and I broke up. At first it was fine intellectually the break up made sense, especially with her leaving in 9 months to go off to a real college. Once the intellectual side thought he convinced me it was time to move on-- my heart took over and said, "you miss her." It was like a whisper.
Since then there have been good days and bad days I've flirted with some girls at bars which really helped the good days.
But I can see why men just don't want to care for women anymore. Isn't in a male to feel sad, rejected, lonely. In fact's it's more evry males instinct to not to wanna have to hurt again. It's possible that 80% of the men out there are jerks to women because some girl rejected them in the past. (Maybe it was a girlfriend, a mother, a crush etc.) Some girl made them hurt so bad they never wanted to put in a position again so they date women they don't care about. They marry them and continue having affairs with other women they can't care about.
It's a bold thought I had. It sounds like it'll make a good movie. But this though came to me when I mentioned I needed "transition girl." to which every women gasped as if I had dropped their baby.
"Transition girls aren't fair to the girl," one said.
"If she doesn't know she's the transition girl, she may fall for you, but you're ready to move on to your next big love, leaving a broken hearted transition girl."
Why is it my male first instinct to find someone to love on and be with until my next big relationship? Cause males don't wanna look like their in pain. Want an example? Read how wooden and lame that blog I wrote about the break-up is. Nothing's really said. I don't mention how I really feel about anything.
With the transition girl, I get someone to hug and kiss and cuddle on while I'm getting over the person I REALLY want to be hugging and kissing and cuddleing on. Which brought me to the theory that some men could decide never to love again. Cause it's too painful.
Someone once wrote, "it is better to have loved and then never to have loved at all." I used to live by this motto. It is better to have loved... till you've lost. Now I think screw love, it's making my November suck ass.
Matt
Been immersing myself into Star Wars lately thanks to the release of EP III.
We watched EP III last Tues. of course, the night of it's release. I'm in a pretty
emotionally raw point right now, due to the break up I thought I was good with (but I'm not.) The movie hit me in a few places. The sheer tradegy that is that fall of Anakin struck me pretty deep this week. A guy blinded but what he thought was right, only to have the rug pulled out from under him.
So Ryan popped in Eps 1-3 on Staurday and watching the brilliance that is Ian McDiarmond (playing both Sidious and Palapatine) is truly extraordinary. That guy can act the socks off people.
It's been making me wonder therefore, if the bad acting style, which George Lucas insists it supposed to be, is really the actors to blame. Look at McDirmond and Ewan McGregor in this film. They either dropped in brilliant performances despite what Lucas said OR they simply understood the style so much they were able to play their parts perfectly.
Natalie Portman is fabulous in almost everything. But in these films her lines are stilted and come off bad. Hayden who I can't really speak for, except for his superb performance toward the end of III, is often stilted and wooden. This maybe bad lines, written poorly, but I think a great actor can find a way to use those lines. PErfect example is Harrison Ford in EP IV. All these crazy lines about hyperspace and whatnot. Using Han's sarcastic tone, Ford runs over the lines so fast, you barely notice them.
Traveling through hyperspace isn't like dusting crops, boy!
Without precise calculations we could fly right through a star or
bounce too close to a supernova and that'd end your trip real quick,
wouldn't it?
Read slowly that line could kill a scene but Harrison pulls it off with Charismatic flair.
The emotions of the tragedy that is Anakin and Oscar-worthy acting of McDiarmond making EP III the best of the prequels.
Where it ranks among all of them is a debate I can't even begin to get into.
You can try.
Matt
Ketchup.
Technically it's an old love revived.I usually don't use ketchup because McDonald's fries are good enough you don't need ketchup. They're so good I can eat them by the handful, Fries upon fries. But, you know, not everyone's fries are as good as Mickey D's And my shunning of Kecthup has been because of the delectible fries that the Giant M has had me consume over the years.
Wendy's fries are all right without Kecthup but suddenly adding the salty tomatoey goodness onto their fries they've become magic again. I couldn't believe I had gone so long without it. Again at work the other night put the pasty yummyness on to my plate and my exploded with taste. Fried potato shooting out of the fry quickly doused with the red sauce and I was happy again.
Ahhh, childhood memories floated back to me of sitting in the Golden Arches my yellow cheeseburger wrapper now orange because of the ketchup I had smeared all over it. Waiting to go down the tubed slide, which invaribly ended up shocking me.
Ketchup-give it a try, again.
Matt
October, 2005
Wierd.
I was crazy busy, shake-ups at work, a film festival and the break-up.
That about sums up my October. All this will come in great detail as this month progresses.
But you all want to hear about the break-up. Shocking news. To us, too really. Kristen and I had talked about everything. Marriage, which houses to spend which holidays at. I was pretty much done. Kristen was hot, she was fun and we got along great.
But, somewhere the little bits started adding up, movies, music, dogs, even the religion played a small part in it, and suddenly all these little bits added up into a big problem. Suddenly, love wasn't enough glue ot keep it going. And suddenly one missed phone call turned into a fight, which caused another and so on.
There's more I could say. Most of it deals with the mentality of an 18 year old versus and set-in-stone ways of an old guy like me. I'm set in the ways... she's trying to find hers. All the reasons you think an 18 year old and a 30 years old can't work became true. I thought we had it licked. We didn't.
Anyway, we've parted fine, and we still talk a couple of times a week.
But I am single again and nothing scares me more. Except for bugs. I don't like bugs. Roaches and spiders particularly.
Matt
Thursday: Renewed love affair.